how can you have a friendship for 19 years and just let it go?
how can you expect a friendship of 2 girls who used to be inseparable to finally separate?
the answer is one word: CHANGE
people change, its inevitable. some change for better, some for worse. some change to cherish relationships, others change to grow a hatred for it.
me? i changed into thinking realistically. you can say you love me how you used to, but truth is, its not possible. if you only contact me for schoolwork and nothing else, how is that “loving me”? if i contact you with funny thoughts, how is not responding “loving me?” whats more real, implying you miss me? or actually saying it. if you dont show it, then it is NOT real. and since it is not real, it is necessary to move on…because clearly you have and you will never realize how much pain you have caused.
i had a dream that i died. your current “best friend” comforted you and told you, its okay, i will replace her.
she is the cause of your change. your change for the worse. i dont think things will EVER be the same.
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i dont even know why i brought this up. i had such a wonderful day celebrating adil’s bday with bowling and dinner…but this is a thought i needed to get out for a while now.
after 15 years of being in public school systems, never once did they prematurely close school before there was snow on the ground!
Its a blizzard outside, but i have gone to school plenty in this type of weather… i remember one blizzard back in freshman year of hs, it snowed and i had spanish 1st period. ms roomet made us all hot chocolate! eventually students came in by 2nd period and in between class (since we were in the trailors) we had awesome snow ball fights!! another blizzard occured on valentines day ‘07! the girls wanted to continue our ritual of v-day sticky pics and so we went all the way to totos in the snow!i was soo afraid that i was goin to get stuck in main street but luckily the bus came and i eventually came home lol
but anyways, today classes are cancelled so im home, reminiscing and DOING WORK! yay.. time to catch up hopefully.. i wished we had thursday off though, its my most boring day!
not much else to write but i should complete the 09 survey!
In 2009..
Did you do something you would never do?: yes turned sour, mj/sal. LOL
Did anyone close to you give birth?: yesss… sweet lil rahiyan
Did anyone close to you die?:close no, but there were a few deaths of distant relatives and cant forget MJ!
Did you visit any countries?: yes! went to bangladesh and kuwait late dec around xmas time and came back in 2010
What would you like to have in 2010 that you lacked in 2009?: the ability to be selfish and not feel bad about it =/
Will any date from 2009 stay etched in your memory forever?: 01 23 09 <3
What was your biggest achievement of 2009?: getting my license
What was your biggest failure of 2009?: orgo lab I =(
Did you suffer illness or injury?: sprained my ankle early march-ish
What was the best thing you bought in ‘09?:my texting phone/phone plan! so addicting!
Did your behavior change over the year?: no doubt, less “hashi khushi”
Where did you spend most of your money?: birthdays…too many birthdays lol
Are you happier than this time last year?: i was much happier last year
What song will remind you of 2009?: aal izz well, lady gaga songs, rishte naate, tera hone laga
What do you wish you would have done more of?: be more serious with my studies
What do you wish you would have done less of?: eating junkfood, lying
What did/will you do for Christmas ‘09?: i was last minute packing and then off to airport for flight to BD
Did you fall in love in 2009?: yesss <3
Did you get your heart broken in 2009?: yes
Favorite TV program of ‘09?:secretlife, vampire diaries
Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?: i dont dislike anyone, i grow distant from people, but no hating
What was the best book you read and/or movie you saw in ‘09?: best book-unaccustomed earth , movie- 3 idiots
What was your greatest discovery?: some pretty awesome friends <3
What did you do on your birthday and how old were you?: i turned 20… i had physics, met with emon, went to sephora to get makeup done with sarah, met tim and asma, went to physics lab, during break chilled with kulsu, moon, asma, kristi and rabia..then skipped bio and continued chilling till the other birthday girl and her crew showed up, then went to nanking, had dinner and cak, came home and thats a wrap
What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?:having my girls closer to me (NBZ and oh seven!! <3)
How would you describe your personal fashion concept of 2009?: cardigans, layering and skinny jeans
Friends
Who was the best new person you met?: emon, alla, shule, dev
Who did you wish you did not meet?: leader of b-unit
Who was your best friend?: nadeem, faiz and kristi
Who was your enemy?: no one
Who do you miss?: i miss neeethi like crazyy, everyday!
Who will you never forget?:the people who were always there for me
Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2009: (same as what i learned in 08) keep a cool face and watch what happens from a distance, it shows you how people are really like, always respect your elders, and if its not meant to happen, let it go.
What will you always remember about 2009?: All the awesome friends I made, trip to BD, fall lineup of weddings, the biggest loss of friends i’ve ever had
Aspirations for 2010…
What do you want to do in ‘10 that you couldn’t in ‘09?: umm hopefully, find a girl for my bro lol and get a job!
Any resolutions?: gasp, i never finished my “ak movies” resolutions, be a better Muslim and eat healthy =D
What will be different about 2010 than 2009?: only time will tell…
Anything you want to change about yourself for 2010?: lose weight and focus more on school/ religion
Do you want to make more friends in 2010?: acquaintances: yes, friends: no …im sticking to those i already know and love
im used to having a class, then 3 hour break, then another class…but this semester, all my classes are back to back excluding wednesday. the bright side is i have class only 3 days but my 2 off days arent really considered “off” because i hang out…old habits are hard to kill!!
anyways, this week was the first full week of school and im exhausted! so much reading, homework, papers…im catching up but i still feel like i am behind.. i hope Allah helps me through this!
today is superbowl sunday..not like i care because i have work to do…its cold outside! Im going back to work…
oh and im in a very “sufi music mode”
atif aslam- adaat
I am soo happy today…because emily called me…although she killed all my minutes..but I didn’t talk to her in SO long, that I’m happy now! =]
Besides that, my summer is going alrite..summer session ended and I AM STILL WAITING FOR GRADES! there was a lab fiasco but inshallah, thats done now. My neice got married, Shaju bhai got married and I got my lisence. Now, I just need a car! wooot…
Addicted to the song–
“You’re my soulmate, you’re my one and only…”
0. You woke up and thought…. yay, bathroom is occupied, 5 more mins of sleep =]
1. I’ve come to realize that my last kiss… was a quick one lol
2. I am listening to… zindagi ye- dil kabbadi
3. I talk… a lot of nonsense
4. I love… meee, yea i’m quite conceited lol
5. My bestest friend… is busy with MESC
6. My first real kiss… was a little awkward
7. Love is… forever
8. Marriage is… a major commitment
9. Somewhere, someone is thinking… when will I find my prince charming?
10. I always… eat an orange or clementine, yummy
11. The last time I really cried was because… some stuff with friends
12. My cell phone… is pink =]
13. When I wake up in the morning… i want to go back to sleep
14. Before I go to bed… I have to talk to elmo
15. Right now… I’m chatting with my bettyboo and ti-ji
16. Babies are… absolutely adorable
17. I get annoyed when… i’m feeling down and nobody notices
18. Today I… cooked breakfast, wrote an essay, g-talked with my lovely in India and watched mera pehla pehla pyaar
19. Tomorrow I… have absolutley no plans
20. I really want to be… on vacation, somewhere farrr
21. Someone that will most likely repost this is…nobody
ANYWAYS—I return after 2 months! mostly because I wasn’t bored!
This semester has been great… especially because I met the coolest group of girls and guys in the world–Masala&Borta Crew!!<33
We met one random thursday in the cafeteria and we have been inseparable ever since!
In March, we threw our first “party” which was because of kulfi’s birthday and it was amazing fun…dont need to say the details because its all on video…
On April fools day, kristi and I fooled her Jeej! he really believed it..but you know, i loveee kristi back!! and she loves mee! we totally make a better couple! hehe
anyways.. i’m addicted to this song so i will leave you with it! <3
Story made by Nithi, Imti, Aamir, Aman, Shoba, Moin and me
Once upon a time, Imti, Nithi and Aamir visited a haunted house.
Aamir peed in his pats before going 10 miles. Imti couldn’t breathe and Nithi cried for her sister.
Aamir smells like cow and talks like Cindy the cat.
Imti eats pimples.
Then, 3 years later, Nithi and Imti had a fight and Imti cut Nithi’s butt off.
Nithi then got extremely aggravated and decided to kick Imti out of the house and after that Imti became a poor begger.
Imti went to the white house and ghosts came to him.
The ghosts were very mean and looked like Norine and Aman.
We found a mirror and brought it to the ghost, it died and the glass broke.
Roses are red, violet is blue, Ellie is fat and so is Imti.
Ghost in the Mosque.
The ghost in the Mosque then disappeared and it left a little gift which was poop!
Then in the Mosque, Imti and Nithi started fighting again and then Nithi had to go poo, she had no butt, so she pooped out of her mouth. Now it was back to the fight, Nithi used the poop-a-swored on Imti’s leg. EWW!
And in the end, Aamir peed in his pants again.
The End!
anyways..that was from saturday..then sunday alishba, kristi and i chilled at elz house with some really good tea and pizza! todayy we made “confessions of college-shopoholics..starring kristi, kulsu, arshi, priyanka, nitol and yours truly…good times…wonder what tomorrow has in store…
i just know i cant wait till our desi thursdays! wooo!!
sooo.. i woke up around 930 due to someone’s wake up phone call!..but it was good because i used to opportunity to make breakfast for my parents.. i made French toast and cous cous, decorated the table for two with the place mats and all, put flowers on the table and just waited till they came down. They were in awe and the food was actually good! lol
anyways.. my number one valentine, daddio gave me a red doggy (named him Clifford) and CHOCOLATES! and my other valentine gave me a whole lot of other goodies..yayy lol…just got to make sure i dont get too HIGH on the chocolate! teehee
today is eventful because FINALLY we bought a treadmill after years of me pleading for one.. it is finally time to lose some weight in the right places.. hopefully..just as long as i dont get lazy….. lol …and finally dad could get proper cardio exercise!
anyways.. january was a great month with an easy A winter class, lots of hanging out, meeting some special people..etc etc.. now its mid februrary! time flies…and unfortunately, classes are getting stressful! i need to start opening my books and study day in and day out..so sadd…
I almost forgot, my new bhabi is finally here!! and shes really sweet and nice and i think we will get along very well..inshallah!
anyways ill end with this:
HAPPY 2 YEAR ANNIVERSARY TO MY WIFEY MINA!! <3 she proposed with a flower from the valentine candy gram and i said YES! wheeee LOL
i miss my girls!.. the last valentines day we spent together was in 07 during a huge blizzard! and today the weather is absolutely gorgeous but i couldnt go out…oh well!
ohh.. and i am in love with this new plain white tees single.. its so sweet especially because of the captions.. awww <3
“aay bacchu, tu sunle mere dil ka yeh order, aab khul ke jeele tu na seema na border”
meaning: “yo kid, listen to my heart’s order, live your life fully with no limits and no borders”
this will be my theme song for the new year.. i am tired of being restrained and afraid.. its time to be honest and live life to the fullest, in the most halal way possible of course.. iA!
so my last few weeks of 2008 were spent studying/taking finals, then hanging out with people, going to the bronx (bangla bazaar ave!), secret santas, Sharmin’s birthday, in-house party with qhss girls, watching slumdog millionaire with aishah and ghajini with sameera (which were soooo good) and shopping! lots and lots of shopping!
last night was our new years eve party and i think it was just like our typical family parties, drama and more drama..but in the end everything should be alright..i hope all the kiddos liked their presents and if they didnt, then well too bad… i am still sooo tired from all the cleaning i did before the party, all the hosting i did during the party and all the cleaning i did after the party.. but it was worth it…
im starting winter classes on the 5th and then spring term starts the 26th.. i am still awaiting my grades for bio and arab lit but I PASSED ORGO! hell yea baby.. lol
okay, i have nothing else to write about..heres my 08 survey… happy new year everyone! =]
In 2008..
Did you do something you would never do?: nope, i usually play it safe
Did anyone close to you give birth?: nope, no new babies!
Did anyone close to you die?: No, thank goodness
Did you visit any countries?: no i stayed in US the whole year
What would you like to have in 2009 that you lacked in 2008?: high gpa, true love =p
Will any date from 2008 stay etched in your memory forever?: no special date out of the ordinary
What was your biggest achievement of 2008?: passing organic chem I
What was your biggest failure of 2008?: not mustering the courage to speak to someone
Did you suffer illness or injury?: oo chicken pox part II, thats memorable
What was the best thing you bought in ‘08?: probably my zen dock coz it came in handy and was cheaap
Did your behavior change over the year?: totally, i just dont know how but people say ive changed
Where did you spend most of your money?: probably metro cards and lunch around hunter
Are you happier than this time last year?: I am content
What song will remind you of 2008?: pehli nazaar, teri ore, no air
What do you wish you would have done more of?: tell the truth, be more serious with my studies
What do you wish you would have done less of?: aim and facebook
What did/will you do for Christmas ‘08?: mostly sleep since i dont celebrate it
Did you fall in love in 2008?: nah, no time
Did you get your heart broken in 2008?: nope
Favorite TV program of ‘08?: prisonbreakkk
Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?: i dont dislike anyone, i grow distant from people, but no hating
What was the best book you read and/or movie you saw in ‘08?: best book- kite runner and message in a bottle and best movie was ghajini and dark knight
What was your greatest discovery?:how cool my mom can be
What did you do on your birthday and how old were you?: i had an orgo quiz, i had arab lit class and i had biology with persell…i spent majority of the school day with nitol since it was her bday too and then after bio, we went to tangra for dinner and i got home like 11ish… i turned 19!
What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?:having my girls closer to me
How would you describe your personal fashion concept of 2008?:i liked layers, long sweaters, cute boots and comfy sneakers
Friends
Who was the best new person you met?: the best would be sharmin, kulfi, nitol and arshi
Who did you wish you did not meet?: no one
Who was your best friend?: sharmeen, faiz and kristi
Who was your enemy?: i had conflicts with a few people but theyre good now
Who do you miss?: neeethi!! and cousins in london!!
Who will you never forget?: mostly everyone i hope
Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2008: keep a cool face and watch what happens from a distance, it shows you how people are really like. oh and always respect your elders!
What will you always remember about 2008?: All the awesome friends I made, summer with all my londoni cousins, thanksgiving and new years party
Aspirations for 2009…
What do you want to do in ‘09 that you couldn’t in ‘08?: go out of the country for a much needed vacation
Any resolutions?: not really, just finish up the aamir khan movies
What will be different about 2009 than 2008?: only time will tell…
Anything you want to change about yourself for 2009?: lose weight
Do you want to make more friends in 2009?: yea why not.
SO, today was a very LONG day. Went to my first “teachers conference”! and it was kinda funny.. but pointless because everything was math related and not science related. But anyways, after the whole thing we just chilled at starbucks, made ridiculous stories while sipping coffee and tea. Good times.
Here is our very ridiculous story:
One day S,A,K and E were sitting in starbucks.
They were tired and bored so they just sat there.
Then they decided to go to Africa.
In Africa, they opened a book store.
The book shop sold a lot of self-help books.
Which they really needed because they have serious problems.
So they thought about shopping.
They bought really cute bags!!!
They were all kinds of colors like red, blue and white.
Kind of like that American flag which waves in the sky.
And they saw the airplane going down.
But surprisingly they weren’t shocked.
They became shocked however, when this really hot guy came
Because he was staring at them and S said, “I’d tap that hot ass!”
And I said, “wow that gum really does a thing!”
It gave them both a real great high! Lol
And they lived happily ever after =]
anyways, cant wait till thanksgiving! but for now, happy early turkey day=]
I have neglected my blog once again.. for over a month…anddd October is supposed to be my favorite month since IT IS MY BIRTHDAY MONTH…but unfortunately there was no rain on my birthday and so I will not have a lucky year…
Bad luck already showed.. I got my midterm exams back… bitchy advisors for TA…my friend’s think I need anger management… lots of family problems… I don’t think I will go on…
But on a bright note, I had a great birthday… I had a full day of classes from 10 am to 7 pm but my friends and I went to Tangra for a birthday dinner. It was pretty nice and I love everyone who came and then extra credit for those who gave me presents even though I told them not to…
Anyways, I started tutoring my neighbor again, I am starting to take driving lessons and I can’t wait for thanksgiving turkeyyy!
Nothing exciting in my life to talk about (not even a CRUSH!) and so I guess I will end here…
