bringing a smile to your face <3

“…Kuch Rishte Hai Naye Kuch Baatein Ankahi
Baarish Hai Pyaar Ki Bheeghegi Aaj Dil Ki Zameen…”

sweet song. I’m bored. I need motivation!

school is ending but there is SO MUCH WORK TO DO! ahh!

time to let it go??

how can you have a friendship for 19 years and just let it go?
how can you expect a friendship of 2 girls who used to be inseparable to finally separate?
the answer is one word: CHANGE

people change, its inevitable. some change for better, some for worse. some change to cherish relationships, others change to grow a hatred for it.

me? i changed into thinking realistically. you can say you love me how you used to, but truth is, its not possible. if you only contact me for schoolwork and nothing else, how is that “loving me”? if i contact you with funny thoughts, how is not responding “loving me?” whats more real, implying you miss me? or actually saying it. if you dont show it, then it is NOT real. and since it is not real, it is necessary to move on…because clearly you have and you will never realize how much pain you have caused.

i had a dream that i died. your current “best friend” comforted you and told you, its okay, i will replace her.

she is the cause of your change. your change for the worse. i dont think things will EVER be the same.

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i dont even know why i brought this up. i had such a wonderful day celebrating adil’s bday with bowling and dinner…but this is a thought i needed to get out for a while now.

after 15 years of being in public school systems, never once did they prematurely close school before there was snow on the ground!

Its a blizzard outside, but i have gone to school plenty in this type of weather… i remember one blizzard back in freshman year of hs, it snowed  and i had spanish 1st period. ms roomet made us all hot chocolate! eventually students came in by 2nd period and in between class (since we were in the trailors) we had awesome snow ball fights!! another blizzard occured on valentines day ‘07! the girls wanted to continue our ritual of v-day sticky pics and so we went all the way to totos in the snow!i was soo afraid that i was goin to get stuck in main street but luckily the bus came and i eventually came home lol

but anyways, today classes are cancelled so im home, reminiscing and  DOING WORK! yay.. time to catch up hopefully.. i wished we had thursday off though, its my most boring day!

not much else to write but  i should complete the 09 survey!

In 2009..

Did you do something you would never do?: yes turned sour, mj/sal. LOL

Did anyone close to you give birth?: yesss… sweet lil rahiyan

Did anyone close to you die?:close no, but there were a few deaths of distant relatives and cant forget MJ!

Did you visit any countries?: yes! went to bangladesh and kuwait late dec around xmas time and came back in 2010

What would you like to have in 2010 that you lacked in 2009?: the ability to be selfish and not feel bad about it =/

Will any date from 2009 stay etched in your memory forever?: 01 23 09 <3

What was your biggest achievement of 2009?: getting my license

What was your biggest failure of 2009?: orgo lab I =(

Did you suffer illness or injury?: sprained my ankle early march-ish

What was the best thing you bought in ‘09?:my texting phone/phone plan! so addicting!

Did your behavior change over the year?: no doubt, less “hashi khushi”

Where did you spend most of your money?: birthdays…too many birthdays lol

Are you happier than this time last year?: i was much happier last year

What song will remind you of 2009?: aal izz well, lady gaga songs, rishte naate, tera hone laga

What do you wish you would have done more of?: be more serious with my studies

What do you wish you would have done less of?: eating junkfood, lying

What did/will you do for Christmas ‘09?: i was last minute packing and then off to airport for flight to BD

Did you fall in love in 2009?: yesss <3

Did you get your heart broken in 2009?: yes

Favorite TV program of ‘09?:secretlife, vampire diaries

Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?: i dont dislike anyone, i grow distant from people, but no hating

What was the best book you read and/or movie you saw in ‘09?: best book-unaccustomed earth , movie- 3 idiots

What was your greatest discovery?: some pretty awesome friends <3

What did you do on your birthday and how old were you?: i turned 20… i had physics, met with emon, went to sephora to get makeup done with sarah, met tim and asma, went to physics lab, during break chilled with kulsu, moon, asma, kristi and rabia..then skipped bio and continued chilling till the other birthday girl and her crew showed up, then went to nanking, had dinner and cak, came home and thats a wrap

What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?:having my girls closer to me (NBZ and oh seven!! <3)

How would you describe your personal fashion concept of 2009?: cardigans, layering and skinny jeans

Friends
Who was the best new person you met?: emon, alla, shule, dev

Who did you wish you did not meet?: leader of b-unit

Who was your best friend?: nadeem, faiz and kristi

Who was your enemy?: no one

Who do you miss?:  i miss neeethi like crazyy, everyday!

Who will you never forget?:the people who were always there for me
Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2009: (same as what i learned in 08) keep a cool face and watch what happens from a distance, it shows you how people are really like, always respect your elders, and if its not meant to happen, let it go.

What will you always remember about 2009?: All the awesome friends I made, trip to BD, fall lineup of weddings, the biggest loss of friends i’ve ever had

Aspirations for 2010…
What do you want to do in ‘10 that you couldn’t in ‘09?: umm hopefully, find a girl for my bro lol and get a job!

Any resolutions?: gasp, i never finished my “ak movies” resolutions, be a better Muslim and eat healthy =D

What will be different about 2010 than 2009?: only time will tell…

Anything you want to change about yourself for 2010?: lose weight and focus more on school/ religion

Do you want to make more friends in 2010?: acquaintances: yes, friends: no …im sticking to those i already know and love

song: rishte naate

what did i get myself into?

im used to having a class, then 3 hour break, then another class…but this semester, all my classes are back to back excluding wednesday. the bright side is i have class only 3 days but my 2 off days arent really considered “off” because i hang out…old habits are hard to kill!!

anyways, this week was the first full week of school and im exhausted! so much reading, homework, papers…im catching up but i still feel like i am behind.. i hope Allah helps me through this!

today is superbowl sunday..not like i care because i have work to do…its cold outside! Im going back to work…

oh and im in a very “sufi music mode”
atif aslam- adaat

i havent written here since the summer… i was in total “depression mode” all of last semester but hopefully i am OUT of it…because it is a new year and i plan to live a new, improved life.

fall semester was bad because of the loss of friends who i thought i was close with, but i was fooled. I dont like the idea of choosing friends and i would never force anyone to choose between me and some other dude.. therefore, i let go. If i cant stand a certain person, then its my decision and my feelings so i dont understand why it affected everyone else and forced people to be negative toward me. maybe i wasnt as important to them as they were to me, maybe i wasnt as “fun” as the replacements or maybe they were all pretending with me and probably even fooling the replacements as well. I’m sorry if you feel like i replaced you, or am now ignoring you? but you did it first to me and now that it is a new semester, i dont really care if i hurt you. you may say that you are always trying, but truthfully, what you are doing isnt my definition of trying.

This semester, i am keeping myself busy and staying close with friends who wont leave me in the dust. i have a full schedule, hard classes, and no longgg breaks. if i concentrate on school and keep my mind off of shit, then i believe i will not feel like shit.

anyways.. iono why i wrote all this, i know no one is goin to read this, but i feel like i should update my life.

in happy thoughts, i went to like a billion weddings last november and i went to BD for 3 weeks where i actually lived the life of a princess. i met some cool cousins and i miss my house. now im back to a new semester at hunter.

cheers to an amazing new decade!

song: daav laga

I am soo happy today…because emily called me…although she killed all my minutes..but I didn’t talk to her in SO long, that I’m happy now! =]

Besides that, my summer is going alrite..summer session ended and I AM STILL WAITING FOR GRADES! there was a lab fiasco but inshallah, thats done now. My neice got married, Shaju bhai got married and I got my lisence. Now, I just need a car! wooot…

Addicted to the song–
“You’re my soulmate, you’re my one and only…”

helllooo world..i have been busy with summer classes and hanging out that i had absolutely no time to update my blog.

the weather has been strange with so much rain but today, it was warm!

my summer movies include drag me to hell and transformers 2 but i hope to watch new york and kambakkt ishq soon.

next week is 4th of july! bbq time! yay and then my daddy turns 51!! ahhh..

okay, thats enough updating..i have to do 3 lab reports, 2 essays and read a book…

tootles!

I believe spring ‘o9 was and will be number one for being the hardest semester ever! but it is also number one for one of the best semesters because I met the Masala& Borta peepz! and it is the semester I was introduced to the tram to roosevelt islandand the semester where I spent the most money…and also the semester where I met emily <3

I am finishing the sentences…

0. You woke up and thought…. yay, bathroom is occupied, 5 more mins of sleep =]

1. I’ve come to realize that my last kiss… was a quick one lol

2. I am listening to… zindagi ye- dil kabbadi

3. I talk… a lot of nonsense

4. I love… meee, yea i’m quite conceited lol

5. My bestest friend… is busy with MESC

6. My first real kiss… was a little awkward

7. Love is… forever

8. Marriage is… a major commitment

9. Somewhere, someone is thinking… when will I find my prince charming?

10. I always… eat an orange or clementine, yummy

11. The last time I really cried was because… some stuff with friends

12. My cell phone… is pink =]

13. When I wake up in the morning… i want to go back to sleep

14. Before I go to bed… I have to talk to elmo

15. Right now… I’m chatting with my bettyboo and ti-ji

16. Babies are… absolutely adorable

17. I get annoyed when… i’m feeling down and nobody notices

18. Today I… cooked breakfast, wrote an essay, g-talked with my lovely in India and watched mera pehla pehla pyaar

19. Tomorrow I… have absolutley no plans

20. I really want to be… on vacation, somewhere farrr

21. Someone that will most likely repost this is…nobody

ANYWAYS—I return after 2 months! mostly because I wasn’t bored!

This semester has been great… especially because I met the coolest group of girls and guys in the world–Masala&Borta Crew!!<33

We met one random thursday in the cafeteria  and we have been inseparable ever since!

In March, we threw our first “party”  which was because of kulfi’s birthday and it was amazing fun…dont need to say the details because its all on video…

On April fools day, kristi and I fooled her Jeej! he really believed it..but you know, i loveee kristi back!! and she loves mee! we totally make a better couple! hehe

anyways.. i’m addicted to this song so i will leave you with it! <3

Story made by Nithi, Imti, Aamir, Aman, Shoba, Moin and me

Once upon a time, Imti, Nithi and Aamir visited a haunted house.

Aamir peed in his pats before going 10 miles. Imti couldn’t breathe and Nithi cried for her sister.

Aamir smells like cow and talks like Cindy the cat.

Imti eats pimples.

Then, 3 years later, Nithi and Imti had a fight and Imti cut Nithi’s butt off.

Nithi then got extremely aggravated and decided to kick Imti out of the house and after that Imti became a poor begger.

Imti went to the white house and ghosts came to him.

The ghosts were very mean and looked like Norine and Aman.

We found a mirror and brought it to the ghost, it died and the glass broke.

Roses are red, violet is blue, Ellie is fat and so is Imti.

Ghost in the Mosque.

The ghost in the Mosque then disappeared and it left a little gift which was poop!

Then in the Mosque, Imti and Nithi started fighting again and then Nithi had to go poo, she had no butt, so she pooped out of her mouth. Now it was back to the fight, Nithi used the poop-a-swored on Imti’s leg. EWW!

And in the end, Aamir peed in his pants again.

The End!

anyways..that was from saturday..then sunday alishba, kristi and i chilled at elz house with some really good tea and pizza! todayy we made “confessions of college-shopoholics..starring kristi, kulsu, arshi, priyanka, nitol and yours truly…good times…wonder what tomorrow has in store…

i just know i cant wait till our desi thursdays! wooo!!

and ooh yea.. e&e one month yay! <3